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juz wanna update..

2009-03-08T23:42:00.002+08:00

hihi.. tonite juz wanna update my blog of how i'm doin.. Well i have to say i'm jobless again. and also hard to find job due to economic bad. i'm not really jobless la juz gettin lesser workin days. now i'm juz wanna tink wat should i do for the time being, and continue with my bakin in some other ways, to earn some more money... well studying my course still on till next yr ba. i happen alot of things in my life.. well it's long story... well my life still moving on and on. now i'm single again. i'm no more patching up with my second ex gf, i'm totally no feelin for her. so the day itself, i say the truthful words to her. and once more i hurt her again. everyone willl say i'm bad gal. coz i start relationship with her and end this relationship is me too.. well i dun wanna tink abt it whenever i c her pic, i feel bad and heart pain.

well i tink why i have this feelin, but i knoe the ans, i'm feelin empty and of course i c couple in the public, i feel more empty and more lonely. well i stop tinkin abt it, i will juz tink of my cakes and pastry to stop tinkin abt tat. well i'm happy in sch coz i can c a gal who's my type i like. and most glad tat my practical room can see through her practical room. i will keep on seein her whenever i have time. sometime i will give some of my cake product to her class eat juz wanna have a chance to get closer to her. well i'm happy to see her 2 days a wk. i haven make frenz with her. i wanna knoe her better. i decide this chance tml to make frenz with her. coz last wk i miss the chance coz i can get the chance to say hi, but i ignore coz my classmate is beside me and she will tell me to chase her and advice how to get her. i'm regret tat i never say hi. i feel tat to make frenz with her is by fate. cant force the things to do watever u like, it wont have happiness. i feel this way. so i rather let it be natural way. but i scare i get hurt first when i make frenz with her, i feel sad if she have a bf. i will feel lose in the way. tat's another reason i didnt make frenz with her first ba. anyway i gotta see how the things goes, i will juz follow it up. if i cant step in, i wont step, i dun mind gettin hurt, i use to the hurt i have it in my ex. i understand the thing and experience from my surroundin, family,frenz,workin. i still have things tat i dun really understand.
And one more things i'm going another trip with my cousin to a'famosa resort at malacca,malaysia. this time i will spend less and tink wat to buy first before buyin. coz last trip is at feb, now is march trip. oh dear..oh ya i'm going on the 19 march come back on 21 march.
anyway i stop here today. i will update again another time

thank u for seeing my blog, take care everyone

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2009-01-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

Hi hi... i'm been busy workin, studyin,meetin fren, enjoy lunch,dinner with my family and frenz. Usually is this wk, coz of chinese new year, hehe... anyway my life is alright, juz keep on workin and get more money in, and one more things is i'm going short holiday at chinese new year. YEAH!!! I'm bad la never celebrate with my family. anyway i'll prepare everything first for my family before i go holiday peacefully. tat's y i'm busy with my mum buyin chinese new year goods. N i also will go temple to pray for my peaceful holiday. ^_^ i make butter cookies for my frenz, classmates, colleague and Families too. i will make butter cake for them too. they ask me to make. oh, this sat will be my busy days, tat's y i never go drink coz last fri i drink till 5am. oh late for my work next day. i cant make it for this wk coz i'm going holiday on sun morning 11am. hehe. N somemore the lady boss ask me to work for few hrs on sun juz to make the cheesecake for her. i wanna say her lor. i did say her few times coz she's not a gd boss at all. yet work for her like an idiot. N i muz get up early, so i can finish it on time and i dun wanna miss my holiday. lucky lady boss give me taxi fare, she dun give la, i'm surely dun work for her one. coz her money is not worth it, at least i get the money from my another part time job to cover up my holiday trip. Haiz... anyway i muz prepare everything on sat, at least sun wont rush. i hope everything will be alright before i go my trip. oh ya, i havent say i go where, i'm going bintan island with baking classmates for 3day 2nites. ^_^ i'm gonna miss my family.

N my second ex gf keep on msg me this wk but never reply her, but did reply sometime. in the end it's my fault to argue. i dunno y. i juz dun feel right from her, i juz keep on tinking if i'm with her, wat should i do, i juz feel tat she can be my first love appearance and mature better, i would love her, haiz... but my mind is blank when i c her msg, dunno wat to say. i thought to myself tat she might not be the right gal. juz cant find it from her tat make me to have feeling. i juz dunno how to face her. when i c her, i will treat her as frenz, so as to knoe her slowly so this patching up with is success, but she juz make it bad, n make me feel awkward to her again. it's true tat i have memories of my first ex, coz i regret it. so the second ex is like changing of myself not to make mistake to my first ex. but i never tink in the first place, now i'm bad gal tat make her hurt alot. so i make a mistake again, i feel tired tat my second ex cant understand or she dun understand the meaning. i make a mistake to my first ex, tat i tell her tat i wan a mature one. but now is the opposite way coz my second ex gf is still the same as my first ex. haiz, anyway i cant find a right one till age of 30. nvm. i juz gotta keep on concentrate my studies and working, coz money come in more...

i will say HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE...
Propersity to everyone. take care everyone,
Thank you for seeing my blog.

mY UNhappY last days of the YEAR. Happy New Year to everyone

2009-01-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone. today is really not my day. although i'm workin last day at the petrol station. but i happen to meet a nasty and stubborn customer scold me coz of a small matter.sory dun really wanna say abt the matter. but i should say back to this customer but keep quiet all along. well it's a small matter, but to me hurt my pride. N i juz cry out. dunno y i cant be patient n keep myself calm. today i have been feeling down even workin at the resataurant. now i have to find another job or else my money surely get lesser. coz i'm no more workin there.

sorry juz wanna say out in my blog,coz dun wanna put in my heart,or else i have been cryin till my eye is swollen, although wanna forget but i cant,it hurt me when i tink of it.
well this sentence is to the bloody idiot,lan jiao,kanasei,nothing to do and say bloody words customer motherfucker customer, chao ji bie. I'm not a person who gonna let u step again. go eat shit, bloody hell customer. when i'm the boss, i c u in my shop, i'm not gonna let u in my shop, i'm not gonna earn ur blooody money. coz i dun wanna let my staff kana say by ur bloody mouth. u lan jiao customer, chao ji bie. u better dun let me see u, i use my eyes stare at u till u will see my power of starin to scare u den ur bloody mouth sayin bloody idiot words to me.chao ji bie.

i have been tinkin of my plan workin, findin another short course to learn, open another blog to sell my cakes, dessert and pastries.but i'm not up to tat standard. but still nice la. and i also decided to go holiday at chinese new year, i dun feel like celebrating, i dun like to see singapore. it's a nightmare to me. i have worst memories here. and nice memories.

i have been tinkin abt my second ex gf today, i'm feeling down, i wanna see her, i juz wan a hug from her. juz wanna feel warmth. but i reject this tinkin coz i tink back when i'm with her the days.i'll stop tinkin. when i c her now, i still tink it's not the right time to ask for tat patch, coz i'm not ready for tat, or i doesnt understand her after few mths, i might be busy with my stuff so wont go understand it. juz dun feel like being attached, so wont tell her wat i'm tinkin. coz the way i c her, she still haven really wat i'm tinkin of.

it's really confirm i'm going to bintan island for 3 days 2 nite. well i did let my mother worry, but i dun really like to stay at singapore to see the surrounding. it remind me alot things and make me stress, i shouldnt tink, but i should say i'm totally down today. i already tell mum tat i'm not gonna spend $100 on new yr clothes. will spend on my trip. although i have things to buy, but i decide to go trip. so wont tink abt buying.i juz need relax. i will spent few hundred buck for my trip. i'm gonna plan for my wk to be busy. or else, money lesser, i shouldnt go trip but still go le, i should say myself tat my stubborness is still have in me, i should forget and dun tink abt it, den wont happen le ma. and i didnt tell my parent abt wat happen coz they dunnno i workin as pump attendant. so as not to let them worry. i will plan properly for my trip and money and my wk to be busy and money too..

well last to say HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE.hope everyone smooth with everything. thank for seeing my blog.

juz update

2008-12-08T14:05:00.002+08:00

Hi juz wanna update my blog since it's very long never update le... well i broke up with her le and i realize alot of things when i'm with her. she make me tired even how hard i wanna get along with her. now i give up le. she insist she wanna patch up again. but i'm tired coz i'm workin 2 part times job juz to get money coz of her. coz of workin, our meetin time is less. tat's y my feelin is being ceased coz of it. anyway i'm now workin 2 part time job and part time study. it's still gonna go on coz i needed money, well one of the reason i dun like patch with her coz she always tell me she have no money make me feel more tired coz i need to work in order to pay her and mine when we going out. and i wont buy things tat i wan it. coz gotta save for her. now money to me is sensitive coz of economic bad and my mother. she ask me when salary pay in, i feel vexed whenever she ask me. i dun like it. the more my ex gf the more i'm tired i am. now whenever i meet her, i juz treat her as a frenz, but she's the one who keep on emo to me and show how ill and sad she is to tell everyone abt it. i dun like it, but her frenz say she's like tat. i would rather dun meet her even her frenz ask me out. but her birhtday is coming, i tink she wanna a patch out with me if she wish. i dunno wat to do. nowadays i juz only tink of my workin and my baking stuff. i did tink of her in the days we been together but i feel tired. now i den update my blog coz i have things happening to me. i feel vexed coz of my mum and ex gf and my workin. sometime becoz of my mum i feel like movin out coz of her being control, feel more stress and did cry out alone and my ex gf hug. sometime i dun wanna feel this feeling. anyway now i back to usual, juz workin, after workin very tired juz go home rest. sometime my frenz ask me out will meet them but i wont take taxi home. coz i dun wan waste it. my frenz understand me juz only my ex gf doesnt understand how's my situation in the past. now she wanna understand it, doesnt she feel it's too late le me. she wanna change herself now coz of me, sorry i dun like to be a boss for u. my attitude still havent change as usual. i hate myself sometime too. but i will always be patient with everything except my ex gf, she make me impatient whenever i with her and her frenz. i dunno y. so i feel like dun meet her coz of this. anyway it's already a past to me. wat i wanna say she knoe le. the same things. i can do it is becoz of my family and my workin. i dun wan to be affected coz of this. i can understand my first love make me heartbroken, so u are the second one i break up i also understand and dun wan be like my old shell like last time. anyway now this is how my life going, so so sorry never update, oh ya, u wanna see my pic. i will update in my friendster. hehe. u will see my second ex gf. so thank for seeing my blogs, take care everyone^_^

feelin sick

2008-09-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

well i drink too much yesterday. today my stomach keep on groanin and bloatin. i dun have the appetite to eat. today i eat fish soup noodle at food court. In the end, i waste it coz i eat le feel like vomittin. coz i'm havin some prob with my digestive system. haha. tml i'm going to drink again. haha my frenz treat me again. i will drink till a limit.

Well i'm chasin a gal juz recently. I miss her now. ^_^

anyway i gotta find a stable job, like this hangin out will cost me alot. Haiz... Aiya

wan a carefree life

2008-09-15T01:49:00.002+08:00

I wanna be lonely i wanna be a item tat doesnt need to move,tink, worry, last long forever till it spoil,rust. i wanna be animal tat juz move wherever u wan, juz do wat u wan, wont live long, tat's the end for animal. i dun wanna have this feelin. i wanna go to my house, my room and close the door. i wanna be quiet,no talkin to family, frenz, juz in the room only me, juz only listen to the air,bird outside my window, walkin footstep, dun need to talk. i wanna be like this. but i cant. i have frenz,family,close ppl to me. i can be listener, i dun like talkin. talkin does have funny way,does have hurtin way, does have lame way, does have boring way, does have stuck in the middle way. me choose to be silent way. i hate tat part time job, i should say i still not use to it, cant give up halfway, frenz give me a opportunity to see a new road. i shouldnt do this to let my frenz down. i hate myself like hell. i wanna scold myself to wake up. i drink so much of beer and alcohol end up i'm drunk and feel umcomfortable,vomit out. i'm a fucker. i'm so damn fuck. i dun like this job yet i drink is to forget this damn fuck feelin. next day i work a use to it job, yet test my skill is it i'm gettin faster so can catch up in the new job. i'm now so damn fuck.am i interested or should i say i'm a fucker tat doesnt tink of a plan. ya. so true tat i tell myself i'm a idiot,bastard,SOB,fucker,stupid,lame gal. i'm so fucked up with myself. SOB!!!!! FUCK U-> IS ME. fuck,fuck,fuCK. i'm so damn a fucker. useless fucker fucker now writin this mean i wanna shout out to my blog tat i dun wanna have this feelin in my heart. dun wanna tink tat concern this things. i'M A FUCKER FUCKER, i wanna tell mu blog tat i'm unhappy currently. FUCK FUCK,FUCK HATE MYSELF,FUCKER ME A FUCKER TAT NO BRAIN SLOW THINKER SLOW IN LEARNING,FUCKER TAT ME A FUCKER/. hate it fuck ffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkkkk this stupid fucker of me, jac aka jackie useless gal in the world, stupid idiot fucker sob of jac.

now i tell u tat i juz write for fun, u dun like this vulgar u can dun read it. sory to let u see this update blog. sorry. thk for ur inconveninence. tat's all sory

juZ UpdaTIng

2008-09-11T14:46:00.003+08:00

Hi.. I'm juz updatin my blog. well i was hopin to make myself busy. Well i feel sian coz i hope tml faster come so i can work in the hotel, so i can forget the timing and dun wanna stress at home like hell. coz i also hopin to c my wedding cake on the sat and also going my frenz's birthday party. haha.. well i feel boring at home, i now write my blog to waste my time. i thought i can work in the ice cream shop, but the schedule of mine is not the same as wat the boss wan. LOL. i dun wanna quit the job, coz it's ok. i always keep quiet and my job i do very slowly. oh i'm fucker. so damn idiot fucker... I wanna waste my time now. i feel tat i'm busy this wk but next wk wont be le. coz i'm juz the same as usual. my sis have a item together. me is single but available. lol.

oh no. i wanna go out also gotta be alone le la.. she will be busy with her item and her work and her study. i muz make myself busy, but i really have nothing to do, juz helpin my mum moppin the floor and take the clothes out. oh ya. i cut my hair again. this time really damn short. well it's not up to their requirement so no choice. i'm damn sad c my hair cut short. haha. well i like this haircut. coz i find it tat first time cut this hairstyle.

well tat's all gotta say. take care guy and thk for readin it.

^_^

2008-08-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

Today i go out whole day with my frenz to find the wrappin paper, and sandpaper for the wedding cake. well i didnt spend much on it. coz i find tat i doesnt need to buy unneccesary things. well i buy wrappin paper and sandpaper. but today my frenz and i walk alot today. ya. her leg tired coz she wear heel shoes. so it will pain for her since we been walkin alot. we both did find the shop which the teacher give my frenz. well today i call the chef coz yesterday is my frenz help me find this job for me. i gotta thk her alot, she help me all along. N tml i go interview, well my frenz around me care me, give me encouragement and support. i thank u for them.

well today i find tat i have few things happen to me is happy things, my frenz who's workin in my workin place(cheesecake shop) is already married in US. coz she went to us for studys. well she tell she get to knoe her husband for a mth and she's comin back to sg. she and her husband juz marry. well i dunno coz it's surprise to me, i dunno wat to say. haha. ya. i havent tell my sis abt her tutor. i hope i can meet her husband and her too. juz curious how her husband look like. anyway i'm happy for her. congrulation to them.

well i'm happy for this and tat. i also need to calm down myself coz i'm nervous abt my interview. well i talk to the chef is calm. but i dunno how it's gonna be like workin in the hotel. i knoe will get stress n will get scolded if i didnt do well, and i dunno i will gonna work long anot. too much afraid la. oh my god. haha.anyway i gonna go interview so i will calm down. coz it's important for my road,income, family,love. now money is important. =p. i spend wisely on my weddin cake. i put my effort in my weddin cake without the tools i needed. try my best!!!!. well i write my blog juz to make myself feel better.. haha. coz i'm still alone all along. juz few frenz. thank for readin my blog.

Hopefully

2008-08-27T00:37:00.002+08:00

Today i decided my wedding cake design. i feel bad la coz of my frenz. anyway really sorry to her. well my weddin cake will be black and yellow.black is the leaves.it gonna be embroidery work on my cake. tat's wat my teacher say. today i do my black rose, doesnt look black but it come out to be purple. well i was tinkin abt the cake i gonna do. lack something. well i do some roses first. today didnt do carnation coz i wanna concentrate on my weddin cake.

i was tinkin abt the job tat my frenz introduce me. i'm nervous. hopin someone can talk to me so i feel abit confident in myself. but i still scare and nervous lor. OMG. today gonna smoke abit more le. my frenz give me encouragement, i feel better but suddenly i tink of the job, my 100% gone down less than 50% le. OMG

anyway encouragement is part of my support, the most important is myself, coz this job gonna give me stable income and new road to learning. i hope things going to be smoothly ba. but i muz take this hard work or else i wont get a better life in my late age, provide to my family and my love in the future. well hard to definite everything. important thing is wat i'm doin now ba.well tat's hopefully. hopefully my weddin cake too. ^_^ tat's all ba

updatin ba

2008-08-26T14:18:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i have been tinkin abt my wedding class. coz confused ba coz my wedding cake i wan is still not perfect. Ya. i dunno my frenz wan it or not. If not i will donate to sch ba. i'm not intend to take back ba. Coz i'm not gd at takin care at it. i rather put it in the sch let ppl c lor. my sensei can take care of it. haha. yesterday my frenz tell me abt how human being survive in this world. reasons. Well i understand, coz my dad did tell me abt it. i memorise wat he say tat make me cant forget. haha..^_^

Well i'm happy i get a grade B in my cake module. coz my pastry and bread module i get grade C. haha. i'm lousy lor. but i'm really happy first time will get a grade B. haha.. cannot show off le, or else bad thing will happen to me, i dun like it. i hope someone can make me happy today. coz i listen to this fav eng song-fall for you. suddenly i feel sad lor. well cheer up to myself. Jia you to everyone. Hip Hip Horray!!! ^_^

but my certificate have no use in hotel line ba. coz now have different baking school and hotel. this basic skill can only c at where le. anyway i finish my whole module and i get my full certificate in Nitec. hehe. Is Nitec cert. but still no use lor. haha. anyway i try my best to get this. i'm happy le, hehe.

Everytime i listen the song i put in my blog, i will definitely sing in KTV. but i gotta remember the song i wanna sing. suddenly i'm there, i dunno wat song i wanna sing. Haha. Well i mostly go with my baking sch classmates. We meet up to eat buffet. haha. i learn this frm them, coz i dun really knoe lor. after eating la, we will go KBOX sing till late. haha. i will drink beer. and my voice will go deeper again. coz my voice is already low le.haha. whenever someone findin me, they thought i'm a guy first lor, den i say i'm gal tat my voice is like tat la. tat's y i sing is all guy song, i dare to sing one nite in beijing sang by Shin, chi boy band. coz i can sing in high pitch ba. this song is rock so wont be so obivous i sing ba. ^_^ anyway i hoping i can meet my bakin sch classmate lor. coz very long never c them since the bbq party. haha. i wonder how are they. haha.

well tat's all for today, i might update again tonite. see how i am today, i might tell my blog how i am sad or happy or no mood. lol. ppl no mood i dun like, i wil make them happy. ppl not happy, i also not happy. haha. ^_^ well i'm not happy, will they make me happy le. haha. i smoke will feel better. althought i'm smoker but i will make sure i'm not tat heavy or else my motivator angry le. whenever i smoke, i gotta tink i smoke how many stick i smoke today. my motivator will tell me how's bad it is. haha. somemore i also drink too, she will say drink less, smoke less. quit is better. haha. Aiya. i should say tat i juz be myself, i will smoke and drink less coz motivator words cant be forget de. haha. =p she c i write like tat, is she gonna tell me next wk. i rather she tell me how she feel when she c my blog, so i can a better understandin rather i tink myself. i gotta go sch. really really tat all for today le. tonite i try la. I love you, my blog. haha ^_^

feelin better

2008-08-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!! i'm feelin better now le. coz i eat alot today again.. not alot la. juz eat breakfast with my sis, eat dinner, dessert with my parent. shop shop awhile at causeway. buy bread at crystal jade after 8.30pm. Hehe. have 20% off on bread. i like to eat their butter loaf. coz my sis influence me. haha... well i feel better in the morning, but after eatin so much at nite, the pain come back awhile. while i'm shoppin, i was tinkin my weddin cake. so my dad give me some suggestion. so really give me idea, so i gotta change my white color to light yellow or yellow. ^_^ well i also tinkin wat flower should i draw on it. well i tink of drawin hibiscus or peony. well gotta tink again ba... well i feel sorry to my frenz tat she tell me to find job... well nothing to write. tomorrow i'm workin, i tink i will wait my sis come back home ba. coz i feel uncomfortable with my stomach ba. feelin hot and pain. haha. will be ok after eatin chi medicine ba.. No worries. ^_^

feel weak n pain

2008-08-21T20:58:00.005+08:00

Well today i didnt go out find job. Coz i'm feeling sick juz like yesterday and didnt sleep well. I eat breakfast with my sis at causeway pt, i already startin feelin not well le. well we shop for awhile den go home. i sleep few hrs after eatin panadol. i wake up and play com for awhile, i still dun feel well, i tell mum tat i wanna c doc. den my mum say eat the chinese medicine. so i eat le la. i eat 2 packet at one time. she dun wanna me to waste money on tat. so i say words with harshly to my mum. so i feel bad. coz i have this bad temper tat i didnt control. well juz like my dad bad temper. well she did care me while i was sleepin. she ask me how i feel or still pain anot. well i say fine in like dun care like tat. Kao. me really idiot, but i dunno why i dun like this caring. juz wanna my heart to get away from this caring. Juz wanna put my heart in a lonely room. Oh am i idiot. i tell mum tat i take panadol extra. she say dun take panadol not gd. take the chi medicine. tat's y i dun like telling her tat i'm sick and wat i have eaten.

Anyway i did feel better after eatin the chi medicine. but i have back pain while i'm sleepin. well normal la for back pain. but i'm feelin uncomfortable now after eatin my dinner. feelin bloated, weak, feel like vomittin too. Haiz.my mum say she didnt buy the panadol extra and how come i havin it. this one i didnt reply. coz i havin pain all along;. so i didnt tell her. now my panadol i buy wan have finish le, so i wanna eat to stop this pain also cannot lor, i wanna eat the chi medicine also cannot. my mum will ask this and tat. so i gotta tahun till they go sleep den i can eat la. ^_^ i'm alrite la. juz feelin not well with my digestive system. my mum tell me not to drink cold drink until tomorrow. should i tell mum tat i'm still feelin not well. haha.better not to let her worry me.

Now i gotta tahun again coz feelin weak n sick. Nah, wont let u frenz who readin my blog worry me. haha. i'll be alrite by tomorrow. hope this pain wont come back again. well i update my blog again tomorrow. No worries.
^_^ also need to tink my wedding cake.haha.. Later take one stick might feel better. i wont take more than 3 stick.today whole day sleepin le. ^_^

feelin sick

2008-08-21T02:56:00.003+08:00

Today i go out with my sis to find jobs. well i did go find the bakery shop at novena, but they hiring guy to make bread not gals. lolx. well nvm. me and my sis did go find other part time job. we both write the name down coz boss is not there. bad lor. my sis did find a job is a ice cream shop. coz i tell her to save the number and call. well she did. she get a short interview on sun. I hope she can make it. We both waitin for the interview timing. we go ajisen ramen eat and shop awhile, we go united square shop awhile and i wanna eat something, so we both saw this ice cream shop. it have liquor and non-liquor ice cream. we try both with waffle and a cup of cuppocino. tat's me always eat. tat's y i can make my little sis fat a kg a day. she treat me eat ice cream, i treat her eat the ramen. haha. well i like the ice cream shop, coz of the customer service ba. i like the ice cream too. it taste nice, i'm going to learn too in my dip course.

anyway me and my sis sittin down at the ice cream shop eatin finish, i tell her i wanna sit for awhile more. i wanna design my weddin cake ba. i did design, i'm not sure it's alrite with my frenz. coz i still find it lack of wat after i design it. well i'm 2-tier weddin cake. so my bottom is white color with drawing of leaf with stalk, stem like a plant like wallpaper. top is green color with white color have flower and leaves. i dun wanna do flower or wat la. so maybe i thought of maybe can put the dessert or wat to make it as a part of the buffet. but i still find something is lack coz after doin the paste on it with the design. i still feel lack . so mon i hope my sensei can help me tink abt it. haha.

today i eat too much le, i feel bloated after i eat my dinner, i have stomach upset, i take a nap but didnt sleep well. so i wake up 10pm plus and eat some bread and milk. oh no i kanna again, not stomach upset but is i feel like vomittin and pain too, so i smoke first to try make myself feel better, but i still cant tahun so i eat the panadol extra. so i feel abit better. but my stomach still keep on groaning. make me feel uncomfortable and feel like vomittin too. so i keep on smoke a few stick again. but still feel pain wanna eat panadol again but havent reach after 4hrs, so i cant eat. so i'm now typin my blog is abit late, coz i cant sleep when my stomach groanin. i watch some video at youtube and c finish les blog. oh ya this time the les blog address is correct.
well yesterday i also have this feelin of stomach pain and feel like vomittin. after i smoke still feel not well so i will ask for panadol. haha. i tink my digestive system really give me some prob la. haha. anyway i gonna alright without tinkin abt it. haha. well i shouldnt smoke too much today coz wat my frenz say will like juz appear a reminder not to smoke too much. haha. sory sory i smoke too much le, =p

anyway tml i go find job again. frenz who read this, no worries. i'm fine after tonite. haha. well i have abit headache with stomach pain. haha i'm waitin to eat another panadol after 4hrs, haha. so can sleep well la. =p kidding la, c i write like this, i will kanna say by my frenz again. not sure la, coz i dunno she will c anot, and my another frenz too. haha didnt take care of my body. haha. no worries no worries. coz i havent say the words yet so wont make myself sick. haha. well i go sleep now, it's going to reach 4am le. wont eat panadol. nite to everyone

happy la

2008-08-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

today i have been tinkin abt this gal. although my frenz say le let me wake up frm daydreaming la. i'm happy la coz i chit chat with my ex finally. coz we didnt chat with each other very long. i'm happy she change le and change to straight. now she still like a guy. me also change too. i also try to like butch but not success. coz i have feel for guys. maybe i'm bisexual. although now i didnt change much in apperance but in heart i change to be bisexual. why cant lesbian survive in this country ma. being like a mature woman like me, it's not stupid. coz love seed can be grown in part of the heart. dunno where la, haha. but now i really confirm i like her. i can wait and slowly grown up.

Well now i like this gal whose is my type wat i really wanna it. she's mature, fat, appearance ok ok. but she like to make up, but i'm ok with it. coz i use to it last time like my ex la. but now difference la, coz i, myself is fat ma, coz i dun wanna my expectation high la... =p juz be herself, i'm ok la. things can go on smoothly. ya i'm daydreaming again. haha' sometime i will memorise wat my frenz and y uncle say, to me is like a motivation to me. i really wanna be with this gal i like in my workin place area. although i met her 2 days a wk in my workin place area. juz like i say like can be nuture. =) i'm not stupid to wait. coz i'm truthful to her.

but la, my frenz say i'm havent grown up la, coz she tell me to put my heart in work and not in love la. also put my heart in family too. it's the fact la, i cant escape it man. tomorrow i will go find job, although my colleague tell me to go find a hotel line job work for few mths to get experiemce and easiler to find job too. =) now i wanna save money ba so i can go eat my frenz's dessert, wat i really wan in my list. also hotel job is very stressful job, i dun have tat courage to go. i feel tat my standard still havent reach yet in my cheesecake shop. i do cheesecake is edible but crumble. so i always do it in my heart and tink wat's went wrong. cheesecake is like my gf. need to like her so she give me a encouragement to me. haha.

well my frenz confiscated my cigarette a day, i cant tahun le, i feel like vomitting, and headache and muscle pain too. i feel better after i eat panadol. i will eat panadol extra strong whenever i have pain and headache and feel like vomitting. i feel tat is not a gd signal la. but juz dun care la. i feel tat is digestive system is actin slow since i eat too much le. i will eat panadol when it's necessary. but finish almost a box in a mth or 2 mth. i dunno, when i c the box juz left 2 pills. haha. so sorry i eat too much le.No worries to my frenz who readin... haha. i'm fine all along. if really happen to be sick, den will be fated, but i will say miracle coz my dad and i hope for tat to be happen in my uncle, A miracle.. =) daydreaming again.

Anyway like is juz a word, but action to like is a prove to her. =p daydreaming again. haha i will kanna say by my frenz again. not grown up yet. =p my uncle will say me too la. he's my motivator and my frenz also too.. i'm gonna sleep. i didnt see finish this les blog. she update again. this time talk abt the relationship i really like wat she say is interesting. talk abt les stuff. so i can get a better understanding in it. although u are not les, but when u met a person who's not a guy but a gal give u happiness. this is the fact ba. coz i did c in the youtube she put her wedding picture and throught in the church like ROM one la, she's really happy with her wife in the marriage. den end of the video she say the person i met is not a guy but a gal, she give me happiness, i love u very much. =p haha. well, this really make me feel happy. hoping too much. ok ok i will stop daydreaming le. i going sleep now. nite nite

OH No

2008-08-19T00:57:00.006+08:00

Oh No my cigarette is confiscated by my frenz, coz she c me still young so should slowly cut down my cigarette. she dun like me smoking and drinking. well i was tinkin of why i wanna smoke and drink.coz is my frenz ask me la. i smoke is becoz i can tink and feel relax after smoking. drink is i hope i can drunk completely one day. i swear i dun always drink.i only drink when my frenz's birthday or i go pub den will lor. i juz drink till my limit. i muz make sure i'm clear even i'm drunk. actually today i have been tinkin abt my uncle and my grandmother. I feel sad that this thing happen. I drink beer le, i shouldnt do tat, but i still do le coz i dun wanna be a gd gal, as wat my frenz tink i'm not tat kind of child. i dun wancoz i feel tat i'm actin as if i am. i dun like this feeling. I feel bad that i drink beer in front of my frenz. well i shouldnt do tat, i need to respect.but i juz give her my bad impression.i'm bad.I feel tat i have alot of things to say once i drink beer. Well i did wanna tell my frenz but i put it back to my heart le. but i did tell her my uncle and grandmother things.

Actually i admire her coz she can do the dessert so nice. i like it when she show me the pic of her desser she do. actually i tell her tat i admire a les couple who's the first couple married in the US. coz the US country for the marriage, they change the law tat same sex marriage can be marry.the first couple is them, they have been together for more than 15yrs le. their age gap is 5+ yrs difference yet they can be together for so long. i knoe it from this blog is abt lesbian things. u can go c this blog http://www.lesplaneteng.blogspot.com/ is under lesbian catalogue. i like this couple. i hope my relationship can be like them too. but difference ppl will have different things happen. is it. but i hope i'm change after my first relationship. even i have second relationship, i will take things differently from the first. i like this gal is abit older than me, coz i like mature woman. my secondary sch frenz like mature man. but my one is opposite i like mature woman. haha, well we both juz frenz now coz we juz knoe each other, i did write in my blog. i hope i can tell her when the time is right. =) will this liking her become not liking her. kidding la, coz i hope i can open flower.(chinese word).

i ask my frenz wat's the happy thing she have when we are in the train, coz she can let me forget when i feel sad or no mood. today i wont drink beer le, but smoke still have la, but already confiscated le la. if i tahun today, den tml i tahun after i smke, how abt the rest of the day in this wk. i need to smoke when i'm workin durin wkend, i'm bad man, i c my colleague go smoke, i can tahun but still smoke la, juz 1 or 2 stick for tat day. after workin, i still smoke one la, so didnt smoke much a day, den should i smoke my dad's cigarette for one or 2 stick a day. if i dun.. he. next wk i c her, she will give me 3 stick. HEHE.. i tink 2 stick better than dun have la. Hehe.

i did ask her wat's happiest thing. she tell me she's happy if she do her dessert is best. and customer say her dessert is nice too. she's happy le. but she say she's not happy when she do the dessert or bread not nice, she feel tat she still need learning. i feel tat she's the best le, i hope i can try her dessert one day. i dun wan her to treat me eat. if i wanna eat, i will use my earned money to eat. i feel paiseh and bad when she treat me, i will used to it de. so i dun wanna be like tat la, anyway she will c my blog after i update. so now i will thank her for treating me eat. thank you for trusting me. i'm sorry to tell you some lie abt my smoking. I didnt wanna quit not becoz of my uncle things. is i need 1 to 3 cigarette a day, so i feel comfortable. i can tahun a day last time, now i need it at least 3 stick a day. well i didnt cut down at all. but i try to control myself le. now my cigarette is confiscated, this is my dad buy one, he have cigarette so he give me my favourite cigarette. now dun have le la. My frenz is cute and pretty now and past too. haha. she will have confidence in her appearance and her inner beauty. i hope she have confidence in herself.

i'm going to sleep le la. i write so long so to let my frenz read la, i write wat i'm tinkin la, i wanna say sorry to my best frenz and secondary sch frenz who read this, coz i write abt my les stuff, i wan u guys knoe tat i'm lesbian. i hope u dun mind. coz i already dun have so much frenz, only left u all le. gd nite and sweet dream to this frenz who gonna read now.

I'm sorry

2008-08-13T18:11:00.002+08:00

Today one msg from a frenz, i realize and doing a reflection of myself. Well i'm feeling bad and wrong. I was tinkin wat i have done wrong. But i did wrong again. This time i hurt this frenz and another frenz. Today i wanna apologise to my frenz tat i have hurt their feeling, I'm sorry.

I wont repeat this mistake again. I dun wanna this to be repeat wat i have done wrong in the past. Tat's y i dun like to talk so much coz will happen bad things. Sometime i speak it out tat doesnt come from my brain. So this thing will happen will let me tink of the past. Tat's y i dun like to talk. I will talk when tat's needed. or else i will keep silent. I hate my past. I dun like ppl to know my past. Only my ex and i seem to knoe wat things have happen. THIS PAST HAS HURT ME ALOT. LET ME HAVE A BIG SCAR IN MY HEART.

I will once again closed my heart in a cold room for a certain time, till every thing is back to normal le, i might or might not come out this cold room. coz I'm belong to a lonely world tat's my only place i can go. will let me feel peace and no stress, no thinking.

I dun understand some of my best frenz well coz i didnt talk much abt it. well they knoe me coz i'm easily get bully and tink every person say is right. I'm still havent grown up and clearly wake up yet. I'm sorry to my best frenz and frenz.

I'm sorry to tat frenz. So u see my post, pls dun ask abt my past. I hope u understand. I write this on the blog is to apologise u. i dun have so much frenz read. so it's alrite to write here. If i write here u dun like, u msg me, i will edit it once i c ur msg

Abt the gal i like is at my workin place area, i will slowly chase her ba, well we do talk but not much so this thing need time ba. but might not success ba coz my feel to her will gone too. hard to say.

Once i apologise to my frenz for saying word tat hurt her, i hope u will forgive me...

Finally i add my pics lor

2008-08-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

This is wat i take pic of myself, my bread showpiece and wat i have learn in the dip in baking... i hope u like it.... haha...

i dont like myself

2008-08-07T12:38:00.000+08:00

Me hate daydreaming all the time, it wont dream come true ba. i hate myself being lazy all the time. i dun have tat motivation to do wat i wan. i hate daydreaming. during sch, i say bad words to a guy who let my frenz see his donut with bad words. i dunno why i say it to him juz for her. I still make frenz with him juz not to make trouble. i cut my hair short the next day, my hairstyle juz look abit man lor. i didnt mean to cut short.it's juz tat the hot weather lol.I make a mistake tat day, my mood juz go down to 0%.AHHH!!!! i'm might crazy lol....

but i feel uncomfortable with the guys. i dun like ppl makin fun is juz tat funny. i juz dun care who makin with who.N i dun have 'an quan gan' on guys. it's juz happen to be my past make me feel uncomfortable I hope i can forget my past juz to keep on moving with a new goal.

actually i have phone number to call for job interview. but i havent call.. i'm lazy tat's true, tat why i hate myself so much. Well this gal let me have a image of her, i shouldnt like her. i'm tryin to have a distance between me n her. but let me always have smile when she doin cute things. tat's make me cant forget. juz keep it as a memories ba. Even she's the one, i also cant. coz i cant match with her. well i hope i can make this bad habit go away.

Back to real life

2008-07-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

^_^ well me didnt work at the cafe. coz of their management probs. i feel unlucky. Today i go swimming with my sis. me really didnt swim much.hehe juz wanna sun tan. Haha. i have been thinkin wat to do. i trust wat my uncle say is right. my dream going to oversea is not a easy thing. i should work hard to get there. not juz sitting down here daydreamin,playing com, n also do thinking. I should get back to real life not in a daydreaming day. Wat my frenz say is right too. i should not stay at home do nothing juz only the day going to sch and workin on wkend.i should find a job to earn money. my frenz tell me to go hotel work part time. to get experience and easy to get job at cafe,restaurant and bakery shop. I really wanna go but i'm scared. i'm so idiot man.
i should find a job no matter wat.

Yesterday we have our bread showpiece and sandwiches. i do the sandwich is complicated and i ask my frenz do one is more nicer than mine.Haha i feel sad, but i learm it from tat. Yesterday nite, i eat supper with my frenz. she treat me eat fried hokkien mee and another plate of seafood. very nice and i like it. i feel bad she keep on treatin me eat. i should find a decent job to treat her eat nice food.=) And i tell her abt my past. she's the first person i tell her. Well she say shouldnt tink abt the past so much. juz keep on going and tink abt the future. coz i'm not young le. haha.. well i have pics of my sch. but i'm lazy to upload. =p next time i'll upload it once for all. hehe.

*Frenz, i hope u dun mind tat i didnt tell my past. I'm very sory coz i dun wanna tink abt this at all. coz it's a scar and bad memory too...

Wat I'm doing recently

2008-07-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

^_^ I'm fine. Well i already start my diploma in baking. I have found a part time job near my school. Well the chef ask me whether i knoe how to do apple crumble or pie, chocolate royal and cheesecake n tiramisu too. I'm speechless. i can only tell is i knoe how to do japanese cheesecake,cheese brownies and apple pie but is different. coz of the base is gotta make the dough and roll it to the size. I did learn it from my school. But I finished is basic in baking. Haiz...Well after tat day interview, i wanna knoe how the apple crumble, cheesecake and other simple dessert is look like and how to do, recipe too. So i go search through youtube, yahoo. Well i wrote it down some recipe is simple.And also write the website which is abt the dessert so can find out more la. but i didnt really do it in my home. Well i ask my classmate who is chef too. she tell me the simple dessert which i dun knoe at all. Lolz... But the dessert i found can be change. I did write the recipe down. I hope i can use it in this new workin with a new creation. I'm now tryin my best to search more different dessert.

Tonite i tell my parent about going oversea when they say didnt see me cant sleep,coz i'm going out with my frenz after workin on this sun.so will go eat and also drink too.Yeah!but my mum doesnt give me much money.OH die die la.will kanna scold by my frenz.My mum is holdin on to my bank account.i'm 21 only have ic and house key but no freedom too.I'm not everytime come home late.I knoe they worry i'm not enough sleep.but i use to it.and somemore mon is my first day workin. i'm more cant sleep man.so i rather drink some beer or alcohol to make me feel comfortable and relax. Haiz..they dun understand my feeling. only knoe my attitude, but dunno how my feeling is.Tat's y i never tell them how is my feeling and thinking. i only tell my uncle.he know how to say me right and wrong thing is. i never tell my parent tat i really wanna go oversea to work,learn, see ingredient which i'm never seen.Juz only tonite, i tell them le. well i know going oversea is needed money. i decided to learn more new items n ingredient from my classmate n internet too. First country i wanna visit is australia,i tell my classmate abt my thinking so she suggest me is australia,the currency is around the same as singapore currency.she tell me abt her brother going there to work. salary is much high.but my thinking is moving on to another country after i earn enough for next trip. I will send money back to my parent. I never forget them.I need some guidance if i'm going oversea.i i intend to tell my uncle abt my thinking. this is my thinking and dreams to move on. I dun wanna be a workaholic and waste my time in workin like hell. to me, i wanna learn and know and Enjoy too! Yeah!!! But i hope my parent will understand my feeling and thinking.. I feel now it's not the time to tell them how i feel and think. i always keep it to my heart. i also didnt tell my blog too. tat's y it have big gap timin.So juz keep on movin.A new day has come. !!! Jia You!!! Ho Shu Ling, Ah Jac.

update my blog

2008-06-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

Hihi... very long never update my blog. well this few wks being lazy at home after changing my job to wkends. I have been eating and sleepin. hEHe... i'm too lazy le. Tat's wat my chef say sleepin longer will make u lazy.Well this is the truth... =p anyway i muz change myself. I also need to change this too,coz going out with my sis to causeway point sometime. once spent, quite alot. Haiz....
N my course started. i spend alot on tat so decided to spent more rest on tat day to concentrate on my study. My cake module exam already finished yesterday. I'm gonna miss my classmate aka frenz too. Yesterday i celebrate with them eating porridge buffet and go Ktv.. Sing till 9pm.. Hahaha... so much fun... I hope i can still meet them for a reunion...
Well yesterday i also have interview for part time job. I'm abit stress after the interview. If success, i will more stress. coz the pastry i gotta do myself. so suddenly i lost my half of my confidence. But yesterday i also very happy and sad tat i make a new frenz. sad is she has a bf. nevermind. the most important is friendship. we talk before the exam start.. Haha.. i feel happy... =p well i tink tat's all gotta say,

My Graduation of my basic in Baking

2008-05-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

This is ally my graduation n i make the cake on tat day n my birthday at sch pic.I make mother's day cake for my mum.I decotrate not nice la. but is my appreciation to her.She's haapy,i'm feel more comfortable.I make vanilla chiffon cake,still success.happy le. Finally i study finish my course. I'm the youngest in this class. All are jie jie, auntie, uncle. My partner is also a uncle. Haha. Well i'm happy tat i know my classmate as my classmate.I'm also naughty too in the class. I learn this basic is wat i learn in my baking shop mostly. nvm ba. Well conclusion is i'm happy to know them.I learn wat's respect to my parent.In the past, i'm not la. Haha. N also abit wat's business is like la. Thank to my classmate

i'm grateful to have them as my frenz.

Fear in My Heart

2008-05-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

Well i have bad memories in my past. ppl thought i'm a gd gal during workin. but i'm not. i'm purposely do it. parent tell me not.but i do it.i let them sad,angry,heart pain.N let my body left scar. this memories give me a fear tat i always cant forget. I have worries and thinkings in my heart.it might let me get depression. i really wanna forget and overcome it. but i cant.it still come back whenever it let me see the scene seem like my bad memories. Tat wat i always juz lei it be natural. it's best not to tink too much or else white hair will come out alot... =p say like i'm old liao...

PLanning for all my things

2008-05-10T12:30:00.000+08:00

Well i wanna post it last few days. but i'm lazy. but i have been planning wat to do last few days to plan for my own cake selling it. n my course after no more permanemt workin there.Well i stilll work sat n sun.at least i have plan for my cake. i decided not to study advancing in baking n diploma in baking. i decided to study in diploma in patisserie. Last few days, i have been worry myself tat i will get depression. I have loads of probs in my heart. So i have been thinkin to solve to my prob. In my workin place, i admire this new colleague. He juz like my old self when i'm keen to learn bakin things. His parent is so young and let him grow in a carefree place. No money prob.He's gd at talkin. I dun have.i have make this promise when i have tat incident. I dun dare to talk much. Me have parent too. they are old n still workin for us to live well. I feel bad n guilty in my heart. Tryin my best to help them, my interest is slowly fading away. i really wanna to go around the world, work n earn for my next trip. but i cant. i have my parent to look after, i dun have the money go.i dun have the next planning next after study finish my course.i cant tell my parent wat i'm planning

Thinking!!!

2008-04-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

well this wk i have been thinking abt my courses,holiday,job too.thinkin wat to do next after come back holiday.find a stable job is enough for my family to use.N i realise tat my interest in baking is not there le.i'm trying to find back. but still cant. i have been thinkin abt my courses n job, tinkin wat type of bakers i wanna be.cake baker? i'm still not gd at it after workin so long.well i work for my family to help them clear off their worries.interest slowly faded.courses i'm still tinkin,takin cake decoration,makin noodles,juz learn things in cake.anyway i'm already sign up for the advance in baking means have pastry,bread and cake.i realise tat i'm still cant pass my cake during my working. Haiz. so i'm now tryin to tink abt it.like tat hard to concentrate in workin.somemore i'm not excited in my holiday and birthday.dunno why i dun have tat mood. might be tinkin abt my course n job.now i'm 21 but still dun have keys coz i'm money spender.wat to do next for my future. no planning for all this. Haiz

Story of my birthday celebration

2008-04-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hihi.this yr i'm 21. so decided to put all my pic on the day my birthday on my blog.well didnt take pic frm my sec sch classmate on tat day.wasted.coz my hp no batt.

26/04/08
Well on the day of 25th after midnite is already my birthday.today i celebrate with my whole family.my cousin already stay overnite at 25th.my cousin jie jie bought me present n free pedicure too.she treat me way too gd.Well i did plan for my day.Morning go eat mac,wanna try the latest breakfast.i try le,nice and sweet.but yesterday drink too much le, still feeling uneasy with my digestive thingy.=p well wanna go cycle with my cousins n little sis but start at 10am. so i go shop shop with them the new opening shopping e!hub. well have cinema,arcade,bowling,restaurant,NTUC,nice food surroundin at 2nd lvl. Hehe!i receive my frenz msg wish me birthday greetin.happy. well we did go cycle for 2 hrs.wanna sun tan.=) after cycling, i wanna go wild wild wet with kids n cousin n sis.but some dun wanna go.actually i should go get my cake at tat timing. but didnt.coz i wanna do pedicure.i ask my dad to help me take it.i found myself so lazy.dun wanna go take my cake personally.haiz never tink abt this at all.after pedicure i go swimming for an hr. my tang ge come le and bought me a present which i request.the bag nice.he wanna shop around the downtown, so he bring the 3 little kids along and my little cousin, me me also come along,we walk walk n shop shop,i met my auntie and uncle,they come for my celebration.happy happy.the kids wanna play merry-go-round so he bought the tickets for them. i'm very naughty ask him to buy ben & jerry ice cream for us.he really go buy for us.after tat my whole family gather at the restaurant.after finish eatin,i cut my cake.i make the sponge cake for my cake n i write too.hehe.decorate fruits on my cake too..hehe. i receive alot of ang bao frm my auntie and uncle.my wish is everyone going smooth this yr.forget to say thank to my family for everything.Aiyo, me easy to forget things for few secs.after dinner, we still have 2nd rounds tat is BBQ.i wanna say thank to my cousin,she book a rm scare not enough ppl slp.my cousins wanna bbq so i juz eat abit n i'm too tired.so i sleep first.i gotta work next day.Sianz...Me already 21 but still cant realise things around me.
25/04/08
well i treat my sec sch classmate steamboat at novena.actually i'm treatin them to my chalet but not much ppl comin so i change it to steamboat lor.but i'm happy can see my old classmate knoe them how they doin.they bought me presents and ang bao frm zhunkuan n evan.Paiseh.zhun kuan and evan and suzaimi look taller.zhun kuan look shuai man.evan look mature and amy more taller than them.look abit mature.can recognise her.quite surprise to me tat sebastian have a gf for so long,i'm happy for him and he still the same old look.taller too.wear the japanese slipper.cute lor.but really have fun with amy,zhun kuan,evan,suzaimi n sebastian gf.he have something on with his frenz.so they go off first.n left us here.but suzaimi really make all of us laugh throughout the steamboat.he's very cute n funny.after steamboat,i have drinks with zhun kuan,evan,suzaimi at ktv pub.zhun kuan n evan sing song nice. evan sing cao ge song nice. but i did drunk ba after drinkin dunno how many cups of tiger beer.=p hehe. i went back my chalet already late le,coz promise my parent tat i reach chalet before 1am.but already 2 plus am.n my dad help me wash my hands coz i have skin sensitive.it gettin worst ba.=p feel bad to ask my dad to wash for me.

19/04/08
i treat my classmate frm bakin sch vegetarian food at geylang coz my partner eat vegetarian.=p the food is ok ok.well i tink classmate knoe le after they meet my frenz. which is tat day i meet her first time.but my reaction is i cant treat her my gf.2 reason i can say is i look down on her coz of skin prob,2nd is i still use to be a butch.i'm feel so bad and gulity.dunno why.i also have too.well i bought a cake bring it to sch to celebrate.my classmate brought happy birthday candles for me.i'm very happy tat day.well only me is the youngest.jie jie and auntie give me a gold necklace and a gold cutie rabbit too.me born in rabbit.hehe.some give me ang bao.after sch i treat jie jie go drink alcohol.me one shot drink 3 tequilla shot and 1 tequilla pop.i drink magarita first with my frenz. then i drink myself on tat one shot thingy.jie jie juz drink one pop.i treat her drink.coz she treat me nice meal.i'm paiseh askin her to pay for me own her ba.but i'm really damn drunk tat day coz dunno how to tell her tat i cant be her gf.tryin to accept her as my gf. n somemore let my parent see my vomittin n drunk face.my dad wash my hand for me too.tat's all for tat.
09/04/08
i treat my cheesecake shop colleague eat vegetarian food too.coz my chef and wife eat vegetarian.well my chef help me order the food. i eat simple ba. try the vegetarian steak n chicken chop and pork chop.baked rice,pasta too.nice and taste look the same.chef's wofe treat us eat swensen ice cream,earthquake,birthday ice cream too.i'm very happy,they sing birthday song different version like cantonese,chinese,english too.=) haha.And my colleague bought me a recipe book.alot of cake, i can slowly see, now already tryin at the cheesecake shop i now workin.chef wanna try and can make the business more better.=) salute chef.

Conclusion:I'm very happy tat my frenz and family celebrate for my birthday.thank for everything.mostly thank to dad,mum and sis for my chalet. my sec sch frenz too comin for my birthday dinner. ^_^

2008-04-27T20:01:00.001+08:00

i love my sis